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  1. Falling Upward is a small book with one very useful central idea -- the order/disorder/reorder model that I mentioned in that other thread. It's the kind of book you might gift to someone and encourage them to read over a weekend. The Universal Christ is much more ambitious. It's a plainspoken but exhaustively researched and supported expression of Rohr's theology of "the Christ." (The joke-y pullquote is "Christ isn't Jesus's last name.") It really feels like the summation of a life's praxis. Forty pages in I worried that the book would only be a presentation of this one idea -- that "the Christ" was/is God entering our universe -- but he then provides historical context for this understanding and traces it through central ideas like the life and death of Jesus, sin and grace, religious practices other than Christianity, salvation, and the life/culture/politics of the church. I've scribbled notes on more than half of the pages in my copy -- it's one of those books. I'd be curious to hear what non-protestant friends think of it. I was raised in a culture that was ignorant of church history from, say, the 2nd century to Billy Graham, so I relish the sections where Rohr presents theological notions that sound almost blasphemous to my evangelical ears with Biblical passages (that I get to reread with fresh eyes) and historical traditions of theology about which I'm completely oblivious. The Liturgists podcast did a great two-part interview with Rohr about the book.
  2. I'd love to have an excuse to write at length about Denis's films in this context, but my fall is booked up with other projects. Good luck, Ken!
  3. Nice to see this thread resurface. For what it's worth, I've just about finished Richard Rohr's new book, The Universal Christ, which is exactly the book I needed to read. He mentioned in a recent interview that his publisher forced him through seven or eight edits, which apparently exhausted him, but the work shows. It's by far the best thing I've read by him -- it feels like the culmination of his life's work and thinking (he'll celebrate his 50th year as a priest in 2020). I'm grateful for this book if for no other reason than it presents a version of the Christ story that feels intuitively right to me, and it's given me a way to reclaim the vocabulary of Christian religion. Highly recommended.
  4. I wasn't expecting either of these! My trip to Toronto will probably be short this year, so I'm already hoping the scheduling gods will allow me to see them both.
  5. I was happy to see the new film announced today! I was worried that, after working so hard to get your accreditation, you'd find yourself at a Dardenne-less Cannes.
  6. Those are the films I've seen, in ranked order.
  7. The survey requires you to rank all of the films, so only people who have seen all of the films will be able to submit a ranked list. I'm actually okay with that. I love many films on this list but don't feel qualified to rank them because I've only seen half.
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    HIgh Life (2018)

    My piece is up at The Notebook. Here's a very on-brand tease:
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    HIgh Life (2018)

    > I'm hoping to read something insightful soon that will help me say, "Okay, I'm glad I sat through this." I think Nick Pinkerton is the best critic of late Denis. His cover feature for Film Comment is great. If all goes as planned, my long essay will be published this week, hopefully on Monday. Only the last fourth is specifically about High Life, but I felt like I was wearing my old A&F hat when I wrote it. I call the film a "theologocal/ontological puzzle box." It's Denis asking "Why live?"
  10. Granted, the world doesn't need another film podcast, but I'd love to listen to one about cinephilia and parenting.
  11. Based on his ubiquity on soundtracks, it seems likely Arvo Part will endure. Here are a few other pieces that I think are great. I've been lucky to see nearly all of them performed with the composers in attendance at Big Ears over the years. Whether they'll endure, I don't know. Music for 18 Musicians by Steve Reich If I could save the work of only one late-20th/early-21st century composer it would be Reich. Honestly, I'd save his music before everyone from the classical and romantic eras too, but I'm a horrible person. In C by Terry Riley The other masterpiece of pulse-driven minimalism. Anthracite Fields by Julia Wolfe Winner of 2015 Pulitzer Prize for Music. Coming Together by Frederic Rzewski Hearing Will Oldham perform this with Eighth Blackbird wrecked me. The Sinking of the Titanic by Gavin Bryars Also Jesus Blood Never Failed Me Yet. The Little Match Girl Passion by David Lang Or, just sample the music Lang, Wolfe, and Michael Gordon have written and performed as/with Bang on a Can. In the Light of Air by Anna Thorvaldsdottir Another tip: check out all of the composers International Contemporary Ensemble collaborates with. Gay Guerrilla by Julius Eastman Expecting the Main Things from You by Nico Muhly Muhly's latest opera, Marnie, premiered at the Met a few months ago.
  12. I haven't read Pollan's book, but I've enjoyed listening to him discuss it in several interviews. I'll be curious to hear if the rest of the book lives up to your early excitement, Christian. It does feel like we're living through a paradigm shift -- not just about the legalization and medical benefits of marijuana and psychedelics, but about the connections between mystical experiences, brain science, and spiritual development. I've been reading, listening, and thinking about it quite a bit lately. For what it's worth, I really enjoyed my experiences with psychedelics when I was younger. In fact, I swore them off in part because I enjoyed them so much (and also because I fell in love with Joanna, whose family was destroyed by addiction). I don't smoke pot now but only because weed isn't legal in Tennessee. I want to be completely honest with my kids -- and a good model -- when they're old enough to talk about this stuff.
  13. A scene from the drive home: Wren (6): Daddy, could you tell that I was trying really hard to not cry at the end? Rory (8): Me too. Darren (46): Me too. I think it was Fishlegs hugging Meatlug goodbye that finally got me. We saw it last Friday night and then spent a rainy weekend stuck in the house, so we rewatched the first two. You know, it really holds up as a trilogy. Keith Phipps wrote a nice piece about how each of the films is built around transition points in Hiccup's life.
  14. > Darn it, I actually shed a couple tears near the end, My daughters and I are looking forward to shedding a couple ourselves this weekend! Their anticipation for this movie rivals mine at their age, when I was waiting for The Empire Strikes Back.
  15. It's good to hear from you, Jeff. I can't remember if I told you this at the time of Anne's crisis, but I once woke up to find Joanna on the floor, struggling for the first time in her life to get her heart back in rhythm during a tachycardia attack. I sped her to the emergency room, and a few weeks later we were in Michigan for heart surgery. On top of everything else we'd been through, I think it was that late-night experience that triggered my years of anxiety attacks. I'm so sorry you and Anne suffered through those times. What you're describing rings so familiar to what I went through in 2004-2008. (The re-election of Bush after the catastrophe of the Iraq War is, to me, even more unforgivable than Trump.) That struggle you feel to sit still and concentrate? That constant craving for the adrenaline rush of political news and outrage? It wasn't until 2011 that I finally got treatment from a therapist, who told me, "Darren, this is a form of PTSD, and there are ways to address some of its effects." Of course, as you probably know, I'm still addicted to moral outrage, although I feel like I've made some progress recently in weening myself from it. For what it's worth, I've been fascinated lately by a couple statistics: 28% of Americans think shutting down the government was worth it in order to build the wall, 28% say they will definitely vote to re-elect Trump, and 29% think he should not be impeached even if he's proven to have obstructed justice. So, just under a third of Americans really want Trump, and nothing I say to them -- including pointing out their hypocrisies -- will make the slightest difference. I chased that political tangent for a minute because, for me at least, it's one of the core issues in this thread. I spent the first 32 years of my life developing a concept of god/truth within a culture that I now realize -- and have hard evidence to prove -- is the wellspring of American white nationalism. That realization in itself is f'ing traumatizing!
  16. That last part was/is the rub for me. I don't know if what I'm about to describe is a hallmark of many churches or only of the ones I've attended, but I was raised to believe that something transcendent happens when two believers study the Bible together or pray together. I wouldn't have been able to articulate it like this at the time, but I really believed that the only authentic communion we can experience is born somehow in the workings of the holy spirit. That was why I attended small group Bible studies for decades. We were supposed to read the same chapters, talk about them, pray together, and then, inevitably, magically, we would be blessed with true relationships. What a comforting thought! Once that was proven to not be the case, I felt strangely unburdened.
  17. In Rotterdam last week, I saw Romina Paula's debut film, Again Once Again, and it's such a perfect fit for this list that I mentioned Richard Rohr during our interview!
  18. Joel, I mentioned your situation to my friend Danny Kasman, the editor of Mubi's Notebook. He's conducted dozens of interviews at Cannes over the past decade. He suggested not even attempting to set up an interview there. Instead, he thinks you should reach out to them via their production office. Send an actual letter, introducing yourself, describing your project, and requesting an interview at their convenience. It's someone's job there to read mail and field those kinds of requests, and that person will have a sense of their production and travel schedule. Maybe you can find some research funds for a trip to Liège?
  19. I’m in an airport, tapping on my phone, so I can’t respond at length to the last few post right now, but I will this weekend. John, I don’t know if you remember this, but we touched on this subject when we had dinner in Knoxville years ago. I asked you why you remained active in your church, and I still quote your first response: “a lot of people there love my kids.”
  20. How fun! I'm jealous. Not to be a downer, but I suspect you'll need press accreditation in order to get an interview. I haven't been to Cannes, but I know from a lot of friends' experiences that wrangling interviews there is a challenge, especially with someone of the Dardennes' profile. At world premieres, sales agents are trying to get their films into major media in as many global markets as possible, so there's a brutal pecking order for press. At Cannes it's a caste system, with different badges for different critics. As an example, I've been trying to get another interview with Claire Denis for almost a year. If all goes as planned, she and I hope to chat a bit next week in Rotterdam, but the sales/publicity team aren't giving me an interview because they're focused right now on getting High Life into more markets. As far as they're concerned, they don't have to worry about the US until April, when it's officially released. (I've been promised some time with her then, but we'll see.) Best case scenario for you, Joel, would probably be 15-20 minutes, and with their interpreter involved, that means asking two or three questions. Let me know if it comes together, because I've been in those situations before and have found some strategies for making the most if it.
  21. So true. I haven't been writing much lately -- just some film festival reports and an occasional interview. I'd like to get back at it. I like Andrew's idea of thinking of writing as a kind of Sabbath activity. I'm sorry about your brother, Michael, and for all that you and your family have been through. I'm glad to know that you seem to have experienced some kind of grace in the process. I'm sorry to hear this too. I haven't written much online about the tragedies Joanna and I suffered because I was too traumatized by them. (Joanna's mother and father were murdered brutally by her brother.) When most of us met, I was working on my Ph.D., which I never finished because writing a dissertation while experiencing PTSD doesn't work. I couldn't sit still for several years and still struggle to concentrate for long periods of time. I mention that now because I still can't believe how totally inept the community of my big evangelical church was at responding to -- or even acknowledging -- our needs at that time. Friends have suggested that we left the church because the murders made us angry at God. I won't speak for Joanna, but for me it was more boring than that. The murders were just the tipping point. I've spent too much time over the past decade knocking down evangelical straw men and don't want to fall back into that now, but I can say, honestly, that the community I thought I'd built in that church totally failed me when I needed them most. Again, forgive me if I step on any toes when I say this, but I think the church culture I was part of is really good at creating and reinforcing a particular kind of social/cultural identity. (What Rohr calls building order.) I felt as if the murders stained us somehow. It was as if our encounter with real trauma, real tragedy, real violence, as opposed to the metaphoric, Sunday School kind, threw a wrench into that well-oiled machine. That's not a bad mantra. I'll add to my earlier story that one friend drove to Alabama for the funeral. He and I now live hundreds of miles apart but we make a priority of seeing each other a couple days every year and we text constantly. It's odd to realize that part of me still craves the simpler consolation of being part of a tribe. Another good mantra. I've still never read much George MacDonald but whenever I happen upon his name, my first thought is, "That's Ken's guy."
  22. I'll write more later, Michael, but I wanted to thank you for chiming in and to say that this really hits home.
  23. I wrote an article about it. (I just reread this for the first time in a decade. It's pretty good!) In my experience, "spiritual but not religious" is short hand for "I recognize that there is mystery in the world -- I've experienced it -- but church traditions and church practices, with their closed cultures and dualistic (right/wrong saved/condemned) teaching, alienate me from that mystery." When I say I might actually be religious but not spiritual, I think I'm trying to reject the wishy-washiness of that attitude. If we take Andrew's more rational/scientific phrase -- "emotions and neuro-physio-somatic responses to the world around us" -- then I suppose I'm looking for something like a religious practice that makes me more attuned to those responses. This all overlaps with my comments in the Top 25 thread. I'm sincerely interested in spending the rest of my life growing into the role of "elder." (The comedian/podcaster Pete Holmes tells a great story about seeing his 75-year-old father wearing a brand new Hard Rock Cafe jacket and thinking, "Really? An expensive logo-covered jacket? This is the model of maturity and wisdom you're living out for me?" Draw your own comparisons to our idiot president.) And when I read Richard Rohr or Thomas Merton, I hear two men who lived their entire lives in study of the Bible and other scriptures, and in service, and found their way to a sense of Christ as something closer to Joel's term "nepantla." Rohr calls it "third way thinking" or "transrational." I haven't put in the hours like he and Merton have, so I haven't earned their wisdom, but I trust that they earned theirs through the discipline rather than through belief. Does any of this make sense? When we stopped attending services, I stayed at the church for another dozen years, volunteering every Thursday night as an English as a Second Language teacher. I remember telling friends in our Bible study, soon after I started, that it felt more to me like church than actual church ever had. Maybe I'm feeling this itch right now because I stopped teaching a few years ago to focus on film programming and writing a screenplay (other forms of meditation, I'd argue). Maybe the long-story-short version of this is I need to get off my ass, out of my head, and back into service of some kind.
  24. For most of the past decade I would've described myself as "spiritual but not religious" but I've been wondering lately if I have that backwards. I'm no longer a believer in any standard sense. I can't in good conscience recite a creed or articulate a theology -- the thought of having to do so makes me tired, to be honest. I was raised in churches where, from middle school on, we were trained in apologetics, which in some ways I'm grateful for because I got a lot more practice in rhetoric and scansion in Bible studies than in school. But I'd be happy to never discuss the finer points of theology again. Still, I find great wisdom, pleasure, and consolation in the stuff of religion -- its metaphors, ancient practices, art, tradition, and so on. Andrew, you brought up the word "mindfulness," which in recent years I've read/heard five or six times a day from various sources. There's something in the air. I've downloaded the meditation apps just like everyone else and am curious about having some kind of regular contemplative practice in life. It's only been in the past few weeks, though, that I've realized I'm attracted to it because it's a kind of spirituality-free religion. (The 25-year-old me would weep to know the 46-year-old me just wrote that sentence!) That's so interesting, Peter! When I mentioned earlier that I was growing increasingly alienated from evangelical culture in the years leading up to our decision to leave, that book was one of the reasons. I was in a young couples Bible study at the time, and the leader, who was a decade older, suggested we read it together. I was in my late 20s and it was the first time I'd been exposed to Christian practices from any perspective other than American evangelicalism. I was also reading Thomas Merton, St. Augustine, Pascal, and Tarkovsky. Those guys did a number on me!
  25. Some of us have been chatting on this and other forums for nearly 20 years, and I know that our spiritual lives (for lack of a better catch-all) have taken varied and unexpected paths. I'm curious to know how you describe yourself now and how the "faith" in Arts&Faith shapes your daily lives these days? I grew up in a conservative evangelical world and was an active participant in it until 2004, when my wife and I left the church. I'd been feeling increasingly alienated from the religious practice of my youth for several years before then, but our decision was precipitated in some ways by a traumatic event we suffered. It's a long, complicated story that I'm happy to dig through if this thread evolves into that kind of conversation. With no offense to others still in that world, I feel grateful now to have escaped that particular evangelical culture. But I've experienced the loss as a kind of mourning. Faith, theology, the big questions of what it means to be human -- and to be a good human -- have remained a constant preoccupation of mine. I mentioned in the discussion of our next Top 25 list that I'd been reading Richard Rohr lately. I suppose I started this thread because, to use his terms, I spent the first 30 years of my life in a classic "order" stage, have rumaged (happily, fruitfully) for the past 15 years in disorder, and am now wanting to reorder some sense of my daily practice, with no real idea of what it might look like. I'm deeply, seriously, hopefully ambivalent about my religious upbringing. I'm grateful for the language and the metaphors it gave me and that continue to shape my thoughts. I'm grateful for the friends and mentors I met during those years (including many of you). I'm also angry and regretful about the ways it warped my understanding of the world. Now that I'm a father, I'm trying to figure out how to create for my daughters an experience that is more of the good and less of the bad. This is a bigger issue for me than just finding a different church/denomination that feels right, which is why I'm curious to hear other perspectives.
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